I love Him.

I've come to a conclusion that I worried way to much about it. I over-analyzed what could have and might have happened. Yes, I was at peace with it all & knew it would happen on God's time. But there was still that feeling in the back of my head.

Sure enough it worked out for the better. We got to have the conversation that needed to be had. We both got information out of each other that needed to be uncovered.

Throughout my first quarter of college, I have seen many effects through many different scenarios of how God works for the good of those who love Him. Right now I can truly say from my heart that I love God. If you would have asked me in the past if I loved Him, I would have said yes because that's the right answer. But then I wouldn't have been able to tell you why, I wouldn't have been able to tell you confidently. But now I can say it without a doubt; with evidence that He loves me.

I made a pact with myself & God two summers ago that I would not pursue any guy for a relationship. If a guy was truly attracted to me, he would be lead by God. Not going to lie, it was very hard. Seeing other couples at school and around town it was hard for me to not go & try to find satisfaction for myself. The time "alone" so to speak, was good for me in different ways. But now, a guy has found me. Whether it's meant to be or not, I couldn't tell you. But I feel as though God has put him in my life to teach me things about what I truly deserve in a man & the qualities I want in a future husband. It's a step in the right direction.

Now I am ready for the challenges & obstacles that come along with truly loving God. Not everyone is going to agree with it, but I soon hope to gain more knowledge about what it takes.