Me & God are like this (flashes up index & middle finger stuck together)

I feel closer to God than I ever have before. And I cannot quite tell you why.

Part of it might be because I have been at peace lately about where my life is going. I am so blessed and I am starting to realize exactly how blessed. I have awesome parents that raised me to be the woman I am today and will further grow into being, they have provided me with a college education, and continue to love me no matter what I do. I have a sister who needs and wants love shown to her from me. Sisters have a unique bond and I have come to realize how strong that can/should be in my life.

I have started to worry a lot less lately. Since I have not been worrying, things seem to be falling into place. I have generally been a lot happier than I have been up here at college. I am starting to get my studies under control. And surprisingly I am not stressed about finals next week. Yes I am nervously anticipating them but God has given me the peace that if I just study this week and really understand the concepts I will do fine. And the nice reward comes at the end: laying around at home with my family & my dog for twelve whole days.

Usually with life's highs there will always come lows. Considering the spiritual and emotional state I am in right now, I feel as though I can get through those lows with the same attitude I have now; realizing that God would not put me up to any challenge that I am not capable of overcoming. With His strength and guidance, all things are possible.

Tex & cheese

So this was taken over President's day weekend when I got to go home. Audrey & I were sitting on the couch with Tex & Audrey was eating some cheese. Tex is a cheese fanatic. If he is the opposite side of the house he can still hear the opening of the cheese drawer in the refrigerator in the kitchen. Anyways, Audrey was finished and gave him her wrapper. Tex was not going to let that thing out of his mouth for anything. haha ENJOY!! C:

God > the devil

For some reason lately I have been struggling with the worry factor. The devil seems to be strategically putting ideas, people, and/or thoughts in my head or in my surroundings that cause me to worry and assume I need to be in control. The major one and the one that is the hardest to deal with is the boy factor. It seems every where I go I see girls ooooing and ahhhing over the boyfriend/lover and it makes me jealous and worry about when my time will come. Then I start to want to be in control and go find that person myself. But then I think about how God has a special person for me and in His timing, my day will come. I just got to keep telling myself that I will be rewarded one day for being patient and following God's path for my life.

I see both ends of the spectrum where the devil can be so powerful and tempt me and cause me emotional harm but yet God is at the other end where only He can cure everything the devil puts in my way. When I start to go the devil's way I am never satisfied. I never feel the approval of doing the right thing when I give into his temptation. But when I follow God's lead, I always get that sense of approval from Him and I always know right away that I should be doing this.

Me being a controlling person it would be pretty satisfying/interesting to see the spreadsheet of my life that God has created. But that's where the mystery of life comes into play. God wants us to give Him our undying devotion, trust, faith in life. He wants us to become the sheep that He shepherds, He wants us to walk through the always open gates and commit our lives to Him and give control to Him. It's definitely not easy but knowing that I am being lead by an all-knowing, all powerful omniscent God is much more trustworthy that me, who's 19 years old, college student, still trying to figure out the quirks in life. God > Me.