God > the devil

For some reason lately I have been struggling with the worry factor. The devil seems to be strategically putting ideas, people, and/or thoughts in my head or in my surroundings that cause me to worry and assume I need to be in control. The major one and the one that is the hardest to deal with is the boy factor. It seems every where I go I see girls ooooing and ahhhing over the boyfriend/lover and it makes me jealous and worry about when my time will come. Then I start to want to be in control and go find that person myself. But then I think about how God has a special person for me and in His timing, my day will come. I just got to keep telling myself that I will be rewarded one day for being patient and following God's path for my life.

I see both ends of the spectrum where the devil can be so powerful and tempt me and cause me emotional harm but yet God is at the other end where only He can cure everything the devil puts in my way. When I start to go the devil's way I am never satisfied. I never feel the approval of doing the right thing when I give into his temptation. But when I follow God's lead, I always get that sense of approval from Him and I always know right away that I should be doing this.

Me being a controlling person it would be pretty satisfying/interesting to see the spreadsheet of my life that God has created. But that's where the mystery of life comes into play. God wants us to give Him our undying devotion, trust, faith in life. He wants us to become the sheep that He shepherds, He wants us to walk through the always open gates and commit our lives to Him and give control to Him. It's definitely not easy but knowing that I am being lead by an all-knowing, all powerful omniscent God is much more trustworthy that me, who's 19 years old, college student, still trying to figure out the quirks in life. God > Me.